Sunday, January 30, 2011

If you don't mind..

Mummy,

If you don't mind, I would like to say something.
I know, I'm not brave enough to speak in front of you.

If you don't mind, I would like to be independent for a while.
Not forever, but on some situation.

If you don't mind, I would like to know how hard to get a train at night.
I just wanna know. If what you say is true.

If you don't mind, I would like to hang with my friends without curfew.
I mean, when will I get to hang? Because I've never hang and I don't have many friends as you know.

If you don't mind, I would like to come home late if I must have a curfew.
Because I obviously never come home late unless I'm with the cousins.

If you don't mind, I would like to go to places I've never been.
Because, I feel like such an idiot for not knowing some places.

If you don't mind, I would like to go on what my friends suggest, like late movies for example.
Takkan la ila kna selfish semata-mata ila tak boleh tgk movie yg lewat.

If you don't mind, I would like to buy things I love or I need, without you saying, I wasted your money.
If it's not yours than whose money I'm gonna used? Since you are the main producer of money.

If you don't mind, I would like you to listen on what I'm saying about my siblings.
Because you never were, even though I gave you lot of hints.

If you don't mind, please be fair among me and my siblings.
Because I used to be caned or scolded angrily and even my phone being taken by you.

If you don't mind, I would like to eat what I want, without you saying that I'm geting fat.
I mean, it hurts when it came from you. I just want to eat. I know the limits.

If you don't mind, I would like to tell you that I have a boyfriend without you say anything for a moment.
Because you will always nagged and said that I'm too young to fall in love but let me make some mistake that basically I will learnt from it. Yes, I know the limits.

If you don't mind, I would like to share stories with you. Even though I know that will not happen.
As, you will shut me down from the first sentence I said. I know, it always happens.

If you don't mind, please encourage me when I'm about to do something I like, or maybe congrats me when I achieved something.
Rather than just said,"I told you so." or "Kalau tak banyak main mesti boleh achieved lagi baik." That's not what I waited for to hear.

If you don't mind, let me be a defensive person when it comes to Ucu.
Because I don't have time anymore to hear her lame promises.

If you don't mind, please don't blame me on fights between the siblings below me.
You know I'm not in it.

If you don't mind, please let me go out without having to bring Aqilah with me.
It's just I want a "me" time.

If you don't mind, I would like to apologize, if my words here are a little bit harsh for you.
I didn't mean to hurt you, it's just I need to let out some things.

But, I would like you to not to ask me questions directly after you have read this.
I want it to be a normal conversation as a normal normal normal situations.

1 comment:

khm3ngsr3 said...

talkin to mum, n it hard i kno! damn i'm such a coward too!